The Thoughts That Hurts Us

Over the past several weeks, ive had memories come back to me, hurtful and painful memories. i dont know why they came back, but they did. it gave me a huge migraine and almost made me vomit. why do we keep those memories around? when i make a major mistake, i make sure to remember it, so that i wont do something like that again, and try to learn from it. those scars are emoti0onal and physical. these memories are different, they haunt me, but i dont know why. i usually let things like this go, but i cant. it hurt so bad, and i felt digusted with myself after it happened, not even a searing hot shower could wash away the filth that was covering my body. the memories of that event came back when i was visiting bako a couple weeks ago, when i went to go visit him. i was on speaking terms with him again, but i knew deep down inside i just felt sorry for him, and that was the only reaqson i kept on talking to him. atleast thats what i keep on telling myself. he took adavntage of my carring personality, and used it against me. i cant say what he did, but he did it, and i have so me regret being with him. he was always a black hole of happiness, always knew how to make me feel like shit, and bend my will. it makes me sick to think about what happened, but i need to get over it, and this seems to be helping. well kidos, its time for daddy to go and make dinner, peace and good will my friends