thats how ive felt lately, just not in the mood, for anything really. work has consumed my soul, almost entirely. i feel like im on a downward spiral, into my oh-so-familiar pit of despair, which ive been visiting regularly lately. it has been a couple of things, to be honest. and ive compiled a list of said things:
1.) My douche bag of a sperm donor father
2.) Work (surprisingly this one is second)
3.) My personaly life going to shit
4.) That fucking speeding ticket
5.) Just life in general
these 5 things have kept me from achieving happiness, that and i think im clincially depressed, but who isnt these days? aside from that, these also happen to be my faults. my father has fucked my life indeffinatly, im always pussy whiped at work, ive never really have had a personal life, and my life just sucks on a 24/7 basis. i have my ups and downs, but nothing ever long term. i have this crazy idea that things will get better if i can find a bf, but i know it isnt true. im just sick of my life, i want my life to be like a video game, so i can hit the off button when i loose and come back to it when i feel like it, but that wouold be to easy, wouldnt it?
i just dont know how im going to deal with work AND school AND moving this august, i dont know if im going to survive, especially the way im feeling right now. i have no life, never have never will, work sucks, and im about to lose any friends ive made in the last six months, for the most part. i want to give up, but life moves on
w/e, im outie, its bed time
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