A Chance I Never Got

i just want to take this time to thank everyone who has been there for me in the past 4-5 months, because ive never have gotten around to actually thanking anyone, formally atleast. so here we go

amanda- youve been there for me like no friend ever has. we've both shared our accomplishments, and our sorrows, and we still do. im so happy that in this last year our friendship has evolved into something so close i could almost call you my sister. ive even got the chance to meet the majority of your family (and yes your mom does love me more than you, lol) your such a great friend, and so smart, youve been there for me, and i hope im always going to be there for you, throu thick and thin my friend, till the end

kristen- you to, like amanda, have been an amazing friend this past year. i met you guys about the same time, but still have the same amount of strength in our friendship as any of my other friends. i have texted/im'd you at ungodly hours, and yet you still lent me your ear, that is a true friend. youre always there, for a god-honest oppinion, and laying out the facts. i know that youd do anything to help me, and you can rest assured that id do the same for you. and a plus for you is that youre dating one of my other best friends, so the two of you make one amazing super firend, hahahahaha. just know that im always here, as are you for me

ariel- i still remember the day i met you, while shoe shopping with a friend, when i run into none other than you and mics. the second she saw me the first words out of her mouth were, "oh god, its travis" and our continuous banter of "your mom" jokes. that was your first impression of me, and im happy that it has almost stuck. i say almost because you have also seen the sublte yet tender side of me, which im happy about, because i only show that side to my most trustworthy friends. granted i dont show that side often, but know ill only show it to you guys, because of how much i love you guys.

kristin- no, i didnt forget about you. how could i forget you, miss ballhog, lol. our times together have been short, but the most fun ive had in a long time. youre always the smart one, the concious of the group, and i thank you, because if someone like that wasnt around, id probably be dead, seriously. we've only been friends for a short time, but i think ive gotten to know you a lot in that short amount of time. i hope that, with time, we can become even better friends

mics- oh micsy-poo, what can i say about you? how incredibly synical you are, or how ridicuously sarcastic you can be. either way, youve been the greastest friend. whether it be our adventures in econ (which you rarely showed up for), or in goverment (which you rarely showed up for as well, and no excuses, you told me yourself but-nut). but i love you anyways, all the great times we shared, from the "your mom" jokes in econ, to the point where we didnt even have to utter insults at each other, we just gave each other a "look", or even the spoken essay for hagar, which was AMAZING!!! i just know that youve been the greatest friend and person, when youre there, lol.

mom- i know youll never get to read this, but youve been my first most, and greatest friend over the years. i didnt even have to tell you i was gay, you just knew, and i love you for that. you know me that well, kind of creepy, but i am your son after all. you still loved me even after all those horrible things i said, and ran away, you were still there for me. granted, it did take a dog dying to get us on speaking terms again, which im not proud of, but none the less im happy were as close as weve ever been before. your the best mom i could ever ask for, even with all of your bumbs, scrapes, and flaws, it justr makes me love you for that person even more. you have been my guide in life more than you will ever know, and i look up to you and brag about you whenever i can. the single parent who raised 5 kids on her own, and 3 out of 5 are fairly succesfull, not too shabby if i say so myself, seeing as how im one of those three, lol. i just wanted to say thanks, for being there for me

death on my shoulder

fuck my life, seriously

in all honesty, i contemplated death today, not even kidding. the kind of "go out and find a gun to blow my brains out" kind of death, the kind there is no possible way for reviving me

why?

this job that ive been so excited about, the job i spent 1/4 tank of gas on, the job which i went all the way to a second interview for, was a complete and utter sham

im not going to go into the logistics, but im fucking tired of applying for jobs, sick of it

but i dont have a choice, i cant support myself at mcdonalds. so i dpont have time to complain, i need to find a better job asap

i love you guys and just thought id update you


ps, mcdonalds gets worse everyday i go into work, they have this way of pissing me off more and more as the days pass

a side blog

so i started a side blog, pertaining to my new work life, which is quite funny. go read it. now. jewboy3000.blogspot.com

FUCK YOUR FRIES!!

AND FUCK MCDONALDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today was the third time theyve had to send me home, due some sort of technical issue. first it was that they didnt have my uniform, understandable, then it was because they wanted to switch me to anothwer mcdonalds, ok thats cool, then they switched me back to the one im SUPPOSED to be working at now, now its because they dont have my uniform.

im done, i knew this jib was going to be to good to be true

but i applied to another place, they sounded promising

if i get this new job, its fuck you to mcdonalds

madcore

rawr

so, ive been reading everyone's blogs lately, and they all seem kinda downer-ish. i know times are rough, and things look pretty grim, but go out and party. i did this weekend, and there is only one word to describe my past weekend, epic.

hold on little birdies, ill feed ya, lol

my sister in law invited me to a lingerie party on friday, so im like omf, naked people. the thought never crossed my mind of me being naked, but as it would be, i found myself strutting around this party for the most part, in my boxers and a t-shirt. it was so much fun, and yes, alcohol was involved. what is a college party without a keg and some jello shooters? stagnet and boring, thats what it is!!!! lol, i met 3 of the coolest girls in this whole town, and some very good looking ausies, emphasis on good looking, lol. so the party ended, amd i had no clue how i ended up on the couch with a half naked ausie on the floor next to me, and no we didnt do anything, im pretty sure i would have remembered something like that.

so i fix us some grub and make our way to the pool to chillax for a couple hours, after that we get invited to an ASU rugby party, intense? yes. it was amazing, but i was in no place to go looking for a man, i wasnt drunk enough to get my ass physically castrated in front of half of ASU's rugby team, but i once again met some really cool people.

all in all, i had an amazing weekend, im not going to write about sunday bc im still sulking :'(